Sunday, April 21, 2013

Well.

It's exactly what the title says. I'm back.*

Looking through my old posts, I wonder just what kinda person I was in the past. I sounded so naive, so.... happy. Strange how it is, looking back at my past like this. I could delete all my posts, truly "start anew" for this blog - but I won't. I do want to remember all this. Maybe once in a while, I'll look back at these posts and laugh. Laugh at my own jokes. My youthfulness.

My self.

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I've read recently that people only look at social media when they're tired of what's in front of them -- True, why would anyone wanna look at Facebook when he/she has friends right there? It's only when we're alone that we look at Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, whatever -- and feel jealous of others' lives. So as anyone might guess, I'm in a pretty bad state right now... bad enough for me to come back to this relic of a seemingly distant past.

So, what's on my mind now, you might ask? School has only just begun... and it seems as though I'll be having quite the challenges to face. My module group mates *seemingly* dislike having me around... (Of course, it could all be in my head, but let me be realistic, eh? I'm just not the most likable person around.) I know this shouldn't be weighing me down as much as it does right now, but... Who would be okay with people hating his/her guts? And it's not like I've been a total dick or anything - I don't even know why some people have a beef with me.

This all sounds bad enough, eh? Well, a friend of mine did a few tarot readings for me yesterday. The results aren't fantastic. They sorta repeat what I've been telling myself for these certain groupings: It'll be rocky, and I'll have to brace myself for the onslaught and confusion that is to come.

I don't know if I'll post again soon, or if I'll post again at all. Maybe I'll go into writing. I don't know. But for now, I'll fight my way through, and emerge victorious.

Wish me luck.... If it'll help a person like me.

*- Apparently, only I can see my own post title. I'll see if I can get another blog layout sometime - I'll keep the posts, but to hell with the skin... On a side note, I'd completely forgotten about the "Scanther" label... Hmmm....

~YXW/XZR/NRZ
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The revolutionist

The name is Xiao Wei.
Virgo.
Saw the light on 31/8/1994.
Quiet.
Extremely reserved.
Can be amazingly different under given circumstances.
Feels lonely.
Wants to die.
And bring everyone along.
Constantly afraid.
Wants to confess.
But fears the consequences.
Loves watching others fear.
Will kill if necessary.

Forgotten Dreams
February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 April 2013 June 2013 July 2013

Wish

Gold eyes (Dream - Avolt)
A weapon (preferably a sword)
Flight (to soar)
The power in the dreams (which is amazing)
Someone who cares (and who I care for)
Someone true (and who I'm true to)
To not lose anything (especially friends and family)
To never wake up (from this dream)

Silent Talk

Doorways
GESS Canoeists
Cai Hong(sis)
Cai Xia(sis)
Bavani(ZPS/BMSS)
Edwin(ZPS/OSS)
Huili(ZPS/QTSS)
Huiling(ZPS/OSS)
Nasruddin(ZPS/OSS)
Nuruddin(ZPS/OSS)
Venus(ZPS/OSS)
Yi Zhi(1yr-senior)
Joel(1yr-senior)
Lava(1yr-senior)
Benjamin
Damien
Eryanah
Hadirah
Haressh
Kelin
Keren
Persis
Saras
Alvina(1yr-junior)
Amira(1yr-junior)
Cassandra(1yr-junior)
Jazz(1yr-junior)
Manoj(1yr-junior)
Vivian(1yr-junior)
Wei Qi(1yr-junior)
Yenyi(1yr-junior)
Zhen Yue(1yr-junior)
Aleen(2yr-junior)
Cheryl(2yr-junior)
Diana(2yr-junior)
Hayley(2yr-junior)
Jasmine(2yr-junior)
Jeslyn(2yr-junior)
Mavis(2yr-junior)
Xiu Ting(2yr-junior)
Ying Ying(2yr-junior)
Amanda(3yr-junior)
Kelly(3yr-junior)
Joanne(3yr-junior)
Ruolin(3yr-junior)
Beverly(Plurk)
Felicia(Plurk)
Minhan(Plurk)
Pamela(Plurk)
Shu Min(plurk)
Yanxuan(Plurk)

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