Friday, August 28, 2009

You all want me to die, don't you.
Today was supposed to be a great day.
The sets were fun.
I broke my record.
The run was amazing.
I could keep up with Benjamin, although barely.
Then those two IDIOTS had to leave their paddles on the pontoon.
What if NJC decided to stop lending us their equipment?
Sure, maybe they wouldn't be affected much.
But me?
This just reminds me.
How I live my life.
Ten points.
1. When someone says hi, say hi back.
2. When someone waves, wave back too.
3. When I see a friend, I won't wave. Because chances are, he or she doesn't want me to say hi. Maybe the person wouldn't want to see me either.
4. When I'm sad, don't look sad. I would hate to ruin others' day.
5. Keep temper under control.
6. If someone who I barely talk to waves at me, I won't wave back. It's stupid, considering why anyone would even say hi to me.
7. When I walk past someone who I know little of, I will ignore that person. He or she would probably do the same.
8. Try to pretend to be happy, even if I'm pissed.
9. Avoid getting too close to others.
10. Try not to smile. Some people might think I'm weird.
Seeing this, it just makes me all the more depressed.
After training, I waited for Jazz to come out of the toilet so that she could return my watch.
The girls showered for quite a while, if I remember correctly.
It was 7:25 when they finished.
So I had to take the 166.
On the bus, I was angry.
I don't know why.
I just was.
Then I tried to smile that smile which I showed when I was with my closest friends.
God.
It hurt.
I seriously felt like crying.
Seems that putting on a fake smile when I seriously shouldn't is worse than doing it for prolonged periods.
Well, I arrived home at 8:30.
I got lectured again.
I hate this.
It's just confusing.
If I told someone my birthdate, would he or she remember?
I doubt so.
I don't even think that anyone would feel sad if I died.

Bedlam, Signng Out.

~YXW/XZR/NRZ
Getting consumed @ 9:20 PM
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The name is Xiao Wei.
Virgo.
Saw the light on 31/8/1994.
Quiet.
Extremely reserved.
Can be amazingly different under given circumstances.
Feels lonely.
Wants to die.
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Constantly afraid.
Wants to confess.
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Loves watching others fear.
Will kill if necessary.

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