All compressed.

Starting...

Went to school as per normal.

Went to canteen.

Got an early morning snack.

ACCIDENTALLY glared at someone(SORRY!!!!)

Went up to class.

Failed to force the door open. Seems like it's been fixed...

Some lessons.

After school, PET rocket.

Reported at ISH, then went to the field when our rocket was done.

FIRED IT.

Flew up... then down at a crazy angle.

Oh well.

Left the field, and went back to the ISH for my bag.

Okay, something important.

sorryforjustnowididntknowhowtoexpressmyselfandnowihatemyselfforit

fornotdoingso.ithinkthatimajerkfornotsayinghiorevenwavingatallalthoughi

hadtheopportunityto.isincerelyapologiseeventhoughyouprobablyhatemeto

thecorenowandwontevengotothisblogandseethispost.ihopethatyouwillforgivemethough.

itshardtoevenlookatsomeoneinthefacebecauseofmypersonalityanditsbeenaburden

uptillnow.soimsorry.andagainpleaseforgiveme.

For those who bothered to read that, it's obviously an apology. Although I don't expect forgiveness...

By the way, after that PET rocket workshop thingy, Damien and I walked around the school to kill some time. Some things happened, and finally it was time for the floorball matches to start. We had a rough time, but in the last match we managed to score a goal and win. We managed to reach the quarter-finals and I don't think words can describe how happy we were. Damien, Terrence and I went with Kelin, Persis, Keren, Jean, Kaiqi and Yupin to Tiong where we got some drinks(?) at Sweettalk, went up to Kopitiam which was where I left the group.

So... well, today was kinda eventful. Some good things and some that made me feel really guilty.

I hope for the best. And also for tomorrow's training.

-Finish-

XiiaoWeiiWeii, Signing Out...

Had SS test in the morning. Didn't study, but I have high hopes for it anyway... XP

English, wrote a composition. 466 words in 50 minutes. Very nice. I'll see if the marks I get are as grand as the word count.

History. Talked alittle about the rise of USSR.

Maths, got my test back(YAY!) and scored very badly... 16/20 only... (could have gotten 21/25. The percentage's higher(84%), but they got rid of that question... zzz) and I got whacked by Yi Zhi and Jun Da because of it...

Art. Went to the art room until 12:20. Then we went up to Computer Lab 1 for our animation slides. Now why do I have to do the front views? Damien has all the easy slides...

After school, went to play street soccer with Azhar and the rest. Halfway through, I happened to look back and saw Vivian waving at Azhar(AVA club) and I thought that she was waving at me, so I actually waved back... Azhar and I stood there laughing about it :D

Went for Physics AP at 3. Then Ms Tay told me that actually, I didn't need to go. DAMN!!!!

Well, I went through it all and went home with Syafiq and Damien. Syafiq got off at my stop cos it was raining, so we walked alittle more and then split. IT WAS RAINING LIKE SH*T!!!!

My uniform got drenched, even though I had been holding on to an umbrella the whole time. Damn...

Came home, mopped the floor again... nothing else?

Byebye.

XiiaoWeiiWeii, Signing Out!!!~

Up there is something else that I forgot to put up... well, now it's there, so no matter. Kinda miscellaneous. (That's Roy rolling in the com lab... muahahaha)

Had four straight free periods today. One CD period before recess, and another two of Social Studies after that.

Made so much noise that the teacher from the opposite class 3D came over to lecture us :(

But we all laughed after he left anyway :)

Training after school. Had lunch with dunno which other canoeists. We squeezed into one table LOL so damn crowded, yet nice.

And after I bought my drink, Jazz and Shi Ying came up to where Kelin, Persis, Keren and I were and I think I heard Shi Ying say *ahem*'s name which made Kelin go "Eh? How you know?" Then I asked Shi Ying what she had said and she said it out, this time louder, and Jazz was saying how obvious it was, with all the clues I was giving her. Well duh, it's supposed to help. They're CLUES...

After lunch, went for water training at Macritchie.

Benjamin, Kai Kin, Julian and I went to the NEW TOILET!!! *eyes sparkle*

Damn it was SO COOL!!!!

Around 12 or 13 showers in total in the guy's toilet, and even the sinks looked awesome.

OPEN SHOWERS!!! XD

Then we went for training... did 10km today, using the "zombie style" that I'm good at. During the 10km, I had a chat with Shi Ying for around 2km, then was called back by Coach to talk about my strokes. By the time I went back, Shi Ying was probably at the 500m mark already and I didn't bother trying to catch up with her. So I paddled for another 2km, got called back again, continued paddling and this time, I joined up with Jazz for the final 2km of our sets(she had started earlier). On the way, we talked about the clues I had given her, and after awhile she asked me if I was really going to do nothing at all. I told her that she(*ahem*) was better in many ways, and that it would probably end up badly if I tried. I even listed reasons, all of which she backfired...

She said that not all people look for material wealth, but rather what can be considered as "inner beauty". I find that plausible. But with all this going on and me considering every possibility, it's hard to accept that. If you're reading this right now, Jazz, then thanks for the encouragement and all that. Go ahead if you wanna reveal whatever you've thought out. It's better than having some idiot like Damien spit it out in some hurtful way. :|

Anyway, I'll try to be better.

Stronger.

Faster.

To show that I am...

good enough.

Xozaron, Signing Out!

Hello peeps :)

Some fun things happened today and it rained, so I'm in the mood to blog.

Okay, to start...

During maths class today with Mr Kung, someone's phone rang.

And the tone was... the Power Rangers first theme.

We all turned around and looked at Boon Bin, who quickly silenced his phone.

Too bad. Mr Kung heard.

Then Fong Chan said, "GO GO POWER RANGERS!!!" and the whole class laughed...

After that was Art.

Mr Sandhu was in Computer Lab 1, so we(the art students) went down to the art room to see Mr Sim in front of his laptop... trying to book the computer lab.

We all took a look and saw that EVERY SINGLE WEEK, EVERY SINGLE LESSON, the labs were taken by someone else.

For some other class.

Damn.

Well we went up after awhile, headed for Computer Lab 4(anyone heard of this before? heh).

Inside, we took our seats and turned them on.

Viwawa wasn't easily accessible this time unlike on monday, so we went on Youtube and Onemanga to watch some videos and listen to stuff including the Muttons to Midnight podcast(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA).

At one we went to Computer Lab 1(lol, pun) since it was free at that time. But since we didn't have much time left anyway, we just did a little of the sketching before leaving at 1:30.

Had lunch with Justin, then went up to IT room 1 for the English Oral Exam.

Oh, and we passed a crowd of Private Candidates on the way.

When I arrived, only Mrs Roy, Keiji and Sherleen were there. We started soon after.

I won't go into details, but I think I did a nice job. Unless the smile on Mrs Roy's face was fake, of course.

So I finished up and left.

Went to the canteen and chatted with Justin and Sherleen for awhile before Zhou Te came. Then we split and I went to Tiong to get a vanilla cone, going home after that.

Oh, and here are some photos I was too lazy to upload before:

A mouse!!! At maritchie!!! This was taken awhile ago.

Okay, skipping today's lessons cos I don't remember anything.

Training!

Sec 3s and Wei Shan.

Apparently his test got postponed.

We ended up carrying six boats together...

In the end, the other Sec 2s and the Sec 1s came.

Paddle...

Paddle......

Paddle.........

Capsized for fun.

Then had to go do 6km. ZZZZZ.

Finished 4km, then we had to pack up.

Wei Shan, Benedict, Benjamin, Kai Kin, Jarret and I went to change at Toilet B. Can't wait for that new toilet to open up... it's annoying to have to walk that far each time...

So, we got changed and went to the bus-stop. And guess who we saw there? Surprise surprise, it's SHI YING!!! Awww, so lonely =')

The reason why she was there later then the rest was that she had left her wallet in the first-aid box.

We got on the 132 when it came, and left one by one.

I was the last to leave, and ended up in this little hell.

Goodnight...

Avolt, Signing Out~

They played Truth or Dare during the free period...

Terence got a wedgie.

Jun Da got slapped four times by Ahmad.

Terence got a little mouth-to-mouth with Fong Chan(is it?)

Andy got it with Jun Da. Not pleasant.

Btw, anyone else loved today's weather?

The rain was so damn great.

It made me feel good.

Sorrow. Restriction. It was a brilliant feeling.

Oh well.

Skipping on to Art.

Damien and I got to work on our little animation. Tracing took awhile, and we managed to finish around two frames each.

Speaking of which, some sec 1s came in halfway.

The com lab became super smelly :(

AND noisy >:(

1G... annoying class...

I didn't have AP, unlike the others, so I had to go home alone today.

Byebye.

Avolt, Signing Out~

Not only in life(for good reasons), but in skits too.

Started with Chemistry and EMaths.

I scored full marks on two of three Chem worksheets :)

P.E. was fun.

First round of Captains' Ball was bad. Partly because of Willy. Stupid basket ppl.

Second round was fun.

We played 7 on 4.

OWNAGE.

In today's English lesson, Mr Lam didn't turn up.

Some fat guy came instead...

Then in CD lesson, our group did the skit.

Last minute preparations, but it turned out well.

I love humour.

Okay, so Chinese came after that.

Letter writing. Something I suck at. A lot.

I ended up being the last one to finish it, and was supposed to put it in Mr Liu's locker.

I didn't hand it over. Hey, it's not my fault I couldn't find his locker. Someone probably ripped his name off.

Nites, people.

Oh, and one more thing.

I AM SO GOING TO KILL THAT MOTHERF&*$%@ WHO TOOK MR SIM'S HARD DRIVE.

Although I hope that it wasn't stolen in the first place.

Avolt, Singing Out~

MUAHAHAHAHA

Nothing to post about :(

All I have to say is...

DAMIEN!

CHUAN CHYE!
BRYAN!

HADI!

Be MOTIVATED!

The four should know :)

Have fun with Ms Teo.

Oh, speaking of which.

Physics AP should be starting soon.

Expected 3E attendance:

0

(that includes me)

Bye!

And realised some things.

VanessaW's getting insulted on her own blog. Come on, just ban their IP addresses and delete their posts.

Some friends didn't link me. :(

I can't seem to access the tagboards of some, for various reasons.

At Mira's blog, I saw some photos of the Dboat competition.

And got depressed.

Stupid dragonboat.

I wanna explode and take everyone else to hell with me.

Nevermind, there ARE reasons for me to get angry, but I shan't list them. It'll just make me die earlier.

Links have been checked, and broken ones have been fixed.

Now there's nothing to do again...

Today was such a nice day~

Even Ms Shirley Tan's SS class was nice~

Now to start~

Came to school early. Was supposed to do "sentry duty" with Mr Kung for 10 merit points, but he told us that we could just go in. AND that we got the 10 points for wanting to help. SWEET.

Lessons were okay.

Physics was fun.

Then after recess came SS. We had this inference practice for source-based questions. She showed us an example stored in her laptop, a picture of some kids standing in front of a wall. On it wrote: Don't ball-lick the Britains - Whack 'em.

Some of us laughed when we saw it. Others heard the laughter, looked up and then they laughed. Ms Tan asked us to infer, and I said that the source shows that there are some Catholics who "ball-lick" the Britains. I was correct. SS lesson was more fun than usual. :)

After that we had one period of English. Mr Lam came in, and we got started on marking the Cloze Passage he had given us earlier.

The entire passage became a joke. Here are some examples of what we said...

> ...and to our right, I could see the _____...

Obviously, the answer was either Peak or Summit, but seeing what my class is like, this is the answer they chanted: "Pau!(inside joke)" And then "Pau! Pau! Pau!"

The whole class was laughing like mad, the Express classes should have heard the laughter and the shouts too :D

> The wind was sharp and ____. We gave answers like Chilly, but then Ryan came beside me and said, "Pointy!"

Mr Lam heard it and turn to him, saying "The wind was sharp and POINTY? You go wear something sharp and pointy show me!"

More laughter.

> As I reached the top of the range, my heart ____.

List of answers:

My heart SANK

My heart BROKE

My heart STOPPED

My heart SKIPPED

My heart DISAPPEARED

My heart EXPLODED

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Lol. Yeah, I'm in a crazy class.

And the best one:

>>>> There was this question in which someone shouted the answer as "come". Mr Lam repeated it for confirmation, and then the whole class started chanting "COME COME COME COME COME COME(guy joke, LOL. Although some girls should know what they really mean)" in different timings, so it was damn noisy... Suddenly, from the back Roy shouted "SPERM!" and then the class laughed HELL loudly, and for quite awhile. Even the girls laughed. Lots of laughter today... :P

After that we finished the cloze, and got dismissed. I left the school and met up with Yong Cheng and Bryan Ting. They were waiting for Nigel and I had nothing to do anyway, so I waited along with them. Nigel came, but then Bryan said that some girl was also coming, so we had to wait more. >=(

His friend(or whatever) came, and we walked to Tiong where I left the group.

Speaking of which, I got depressed again :(

Because I saw her while I was leaving the school :(

I wanted so much to punch myself...

Oh well.

XiiaoWeiiWeii, Signing Out~

Yes, forget. I've forgiven them.

There wasn't much to do today, but there's a short video that I took...

I'm feeling quite lazy right now, so I'll save that one for next time.

And so, on to the main topic.

It's regarding her.

Ever since last year, I've remained stuck on the same stepping stone. There's been no progress. None. Zero. So, I'm going to make a big step in becoming better.

I'm going to forget.

It's not much, but I'll try. It'll be a little promise. Reason being, ever since last year, I've been doing some very stupid things. I've been rushing down the moment recess starts just to get a glimpse of her before she goes into her class. I've been making stupid excuses just to go down and walk near her class, like buying another piece of bread or getting another drink. I've been observing the times when she leaves the class according to the timetable and walking right outside the extra class hoping that she'll see me. And now it just seems all so STUPID.

All that, for someone who probably doesn't even notice my physical existence.

There's something I live by. I call it Aura. To me, Aura is important. It decides if you advance. Aura is shown by how many people notice you when you enter a specific area. And mine seems so pathetic. I have friends telling me that they can sense if I'm right behind them, as though I have a strong Aura. Yeah, an Aura of a stalker.

According to what I observed, many others I know have some kind of magnificent Aura that actually lets me know that they're there once they enter the room. Others such as myself can stay unnoticed for short periods of time before anyone actually notices that we are right beside them. It's useful sometimes, but it's not what I desire. I want to be noticed. By friends. By strangers. By her.

Back to the topic, I'm going to forget about her. About when it started. About how much I long to see her. Even if it's impossible, I'm going to try. Even if it feels like stabbing myself with a hundred swords, I will try to forget everything. Because I know that no matter how long I dream, it will never come true. Feelings don't just come back the way I wish it. Just today, after school, I saw her. It was probably something else I refer to as chance, something which power far exceeds the Aura but comes so rarely that I don't bother relying on it.

And so I saw her. But did she see me?

Chances. Now that I think about it, so many have come my way, only to be pushed away by my own stupidity and foolishness. Just earlier this year, a group of girls came to ask me if Ramadan, a retained student in my class, was in school. I was afraid to make eye contact, so I behaved rather erratically. I probably made them feel as if I hated them. So it became worse.

All that, and with Xozaron suddenly appearing in my head just now. Right after I saw her, I left the school. And as I was walking, his voice resounded in my head...

As usual, he warned me to stop dreaming. To just live in reality. To forget about useless desires and pursue what was in reach. I didn't want to listen to these words months ago, but I always knew that he was right. That I simply had to let go. But I didn't want to. Because I knew that it would hurt. It would hurt more than that broken romance in primary school. I knew it would. And so I remained happy, ignoring Xozaron's words and desiring what was always too far.

Romance. I've been trying so hard to forget what it felt like. To feel so happy just to be able to see her face, to get so depressed when she didn't appear like she usually did... I tried so hard, convincing myself that it was all a big lie. That it was all false. That that girl probably hated me and didn't even notice my existence, that to her I was just some pebble on the beach.

But even then, I couldn't stop dreaming. I still felt overjoyed when I saw her every day at the Arena. And when she didn't sit there like she usually did, I simply felt so empty. As long as I got to see her, that was fine - nothing else mattered.

But right now, I'm going to believe in what Xozaron has to say. Just a little. So I don't get consumed. I'll stop rushing down hoping to see her face. I'll stop walking up and down the school hoping that she will notice me. I'll even stop going for recess if it can lessen the pain. As long as I don't know how she will react when she finds out about this, I'll probably continue living my life the way it is, clinging on to what little hope there is of her not rejecting me if I ever confessed. My heart has never broken before, but it has sank. I don't want to feel the pain again. Anything but that...

And now, some final notes.

Kelin: You guessed it right. Although it's not much to be happy about now, I guess.

Jazz: You know her. Shi Ying knows her. Should be quite narrowed down now.

Okay, nothing else. I think.

Xozaron, Singing Out.

All it takes to piss me off.

Terrence See and Damien should just die.

When I introduced that topic,

the plan was to let everyone have a different half of the puzzle.

Get another half, and the puzzle would be complete.

Yet, people like Kelin and Terrence don't understand simple logic.

Kelin, for telling Terrence.

Please, that idiot couldn't keep his mouth shut if I pointed a gun in his face. Regarding a retard like that, tell him something and he couldn't just whisper it to someone else without everyone else knowing. Why he even managed to survive up till now, I don't know. Why I even made friends with him in the first place, I don't know either. He's a jerk and he can insult his friends without thinking twice. And for Kelin to SMS him about the other half of the puzzle, she probably has the same amount of IQ and EQ as he does.

And that idiot Terrence, for shouting it out loud.

No, wait, I think that's letting him off too easily. Anyone with an EQ of a normal person would learn to think twice before shouting out something personal in a crowded area. And I don't even want to get started on just how stupid he is. He shouts it out, and expects nobody to hear. What kind of FUCKING IDIOT shouts something and expects everyone else not to notice? And of all the people that could have heard, it was that ass of a Damien. Everyone else knows that he can't keep secrets, and Terrence just couldn't help but say something personal to others right in front of him. Oh please, having one retard was enough, now Terrence wants to become another? He DESERVES to be ditched by Persis. He's rich. So what. I hope his parents die and all the money gets snatched by his relatives. Acting like he's so great, being the Team Captain and in the Executive Committee. Big deal. I know a ton of other people who are as rich as him or more with a hell better of an attitude. Same goes for Damien. The two of them should just have that silver spoon forced out of their mouths before they wake up.

Xozaron, Signing Out.

In sequence: Getting used to the new timetable, unexpected sight, fight, escort.

Starting with the getting used to.

First period was History. Kinda interesting today(considering the fact that I didn't fall asleep despite having Liang Kai tempting me to do so right beside me). After History though, I went down to the first floor for recess. Wait, recess? At the third period?

Yeah, stupid. I know. I've gotten used to rushing down after every History lesson.

So I ran back up the stairs for Mr Lam(pa[class joke])'s class.

English was okay. Quite fun with the new teacher. Although I still think that Mdm Foo was lying when she said that the new teacher was a handsome guy(not to be bad, but he's average-looking. Maybe Mdm Foo was comparing him to herself when she said that, LOL), she's actually wise enough to leave us in the hands of that (seemingly) good teacher. Hehe :P

After English was... hmm lemme see... oh, maths!!!

Double maths!!!

With Mr Kung!!!

Hahaha, yet another interesting lesson. "The lines from the external point bisect the what?" *No answer* "The hole? What hole?" *Class sniggers* "The A Hole?" *Class sniggers even more* "No, not a hole, the lines from the external point bisect the circle at a single point."

Heh. We love his classes, right? ;D

After Maths, Terrence, Damien, Chuan Chye and I went down to get some... bread!(again)

Then I went to buy some tissue paper cos my nose was 'leaking'. Not a nice sight.

The four of us went back up to our classroom, and on the way I saw *ahem* and Terrence asked me about *ahem*. I gave him some clues BUT he got too lazy to guess :P

Back up at class, Physics went along smoothly. Then around the end of the lesson, I went out. Then I went in again to see Terrence and Andy at the back of the class whacking each other. I'm not the kind of person who loves to see people fighting, so I went out again.

Chinese lesson.

Mr Liu had arrived at our class, and being the good student that I am(I can imagine people saying AHEM when they read this), I went in too. The fight seemed to be over. And Mr Kung was outside 3D on the other side, so I didn't think anybody would want to create trouble anyway.

Yeah, right. There are always exceptions.

Suddenly Andy pushed his table over and rushed at Terrence, grabbing him and shouting *AHEM AHEM*. Terrence grabbed him too, but didn't fight back. I stood at the side again as a passive unit. Next thing I knew, Roy and Mr Liu were trying to break them up and Mr Kung was walking over to our class. I swear I didn't take sides.

...

.....

......................

Okay fine, I laughed. But it WAS funny.

After the fight, *AHEM AHEM AHEM* went and threw Andy's glasses out the window. Damn. And I was asked to give an eyewitness account. After a while I found Andy's glasses on the ground at the first floor, so I went down with Mr Kung and Andy to get the glasses back.

The fun part: I'm the first student EVER to walk into the sports hall area.

The even-more-fun part: Mr Kung raised the net for me to get in.

Well, after all that chaos Mr Kung asked me if I could escort Andy home to make sure that he didn't loiter about. Fine. Not like I could refuse.

So I walked with Andy to his home, and on the way Andy thanked me for the glasses. And he said that he wished he could be like me. I ensured him that he was better off being the way he is.

Request completed, I went home. Simple.

Xiao Wei, Signing Out~